Exhausted

Yesterday and today was very tiring day for me cuz i'm having a Basic Unarmed Combat(BUC) for the whole day.

Will be certify on Tuesday which is the last day of the training.

Eventhough the training was very tough, i do really enjoyed it so much.

it was so fun cuz i got to learn the self-defence tactics and it was a great experience.
Now, i've knew abit of fightings but still being clumsy on it. Hehehe.

All my body is aching like hell especially my arms, muscles and veins pain.

Every parts is cramping. Urgh... )=

i need to go for massaging and spa to pamper myself after all this harsh training.

Or it will be more easier if someone wanna massage me. ;)

Looking forward for Firearm training. (=

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Just got back home about half an hour ago from jalan raya.

Went to Abang Sadali's house(JBP colleague) at Jurong West.

it was a good moments cuz i got to meet up with my ex colleagues and his family members too.

His kids are so adorable and both girls are twins.

They even kisses me before i headed home. Haha.

isn't that cute? Adorably them. (=

Thanks abg for the nasi brani-ing!

it was very delicious! (=

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Tomorrow planning is to clean up my house and went for jogging to gain my stamina.

Cuz it seems that it has been quite sometimes that i didn't jogged and thats why all my muscle starts to aching.

And even my stomache is getting bigger. LOL.

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Uploaded new photos in FB, do view!

Till here.

See ya! (=

it's driving me crazy

i'm in a D I L E M M A .

i've been thinking alot of things in my head.

i can't really decide which is the best decision for myself...for my own good.

i'm in a situation in which i have to made a choice between options that are equally unfavourable.

i thought i am willing to try this but after, my feelings changed.

i'm feeling half-hearted right now.

i just can't force myself in to it.

i really can't.

it seems to me that the harder i try the harder i fall.

Should i back off ???

Should i just continue for the sake of my parents or for the sake of my future or for the sake of being guilty towards my parents or for the sake of by supporting myself ???

i'm afraid they might be bad-mouth me due to this matter.

They said that this thing could gurantee my future.

To me, i don't think so, i'm strongly disagree.

One remembered me by saying that,

" if u have money but ur life are not happy or no life, for what? No use. "

Haiz..........very stressful.

i felt deeply shit right now...my feelings is in disaster...total disaster.

Somehow, i can see alot of changes on what happens around me after.

Very disappointed though.

it's really hard to face this matter for me.

Still, i just faced this matter as in nothing happens but inside u'll never know.

U look at me and think, 'she's so happy' but there's so much behind this little smile that u will never know.

What goes around comes around.

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" Oh God, please send me ur blessing which i really need a very good guidance from u. "

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2nd Day of Raya

Very tiring day.

Eventhough went out late and just went to a few houses, but still the tiredness could still feel.

Went to 3 houses.

- Yishun

- Jurong West (2 houses)

Lastly, they went to my house to dig in and sat until 12+am.

Convenietly, my uncle drove a lorry, another uncle drove a car and my auntie drove a car too.

For the ladies, normally, took a car cuz of our Baju Kurung(kain).

For the guys, took a lorry which was so cool. Ahaks.

Easily said, seperated into groups of gender. LOL.

i was imagining that next year, my fam will drive by our own.

My bro gonna took his TP soon and for me, i'm still thinking.

if can i wanted to take the driving license before the next year of Raya.

it will be more Syiok! ;)

Hmm...see how.

Need to have a stable financial.

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As for the 1st day of Raya, my fam dress code was black in colour.

2nd day, was purple cream in colour except for my dad, he's out of the dress code cuz he wore orange in colour. Huahua.

The sad thing is that, this year i didn't get to take a pic of my fam together. Haiz. )=

Was busy enjoying myself talking here and there with relatives. Ehees.

But i did took photos of my whole fam during the visiting of houses to houses. (=

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Aftermath, it was a very memories Hari Raya day for me!

Due to some fam problems that have not been settle for the past 2yrs and now it has settled! =D

Emotional and Happiest Day! (=

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Tomorrow i'm working and i was very restless.

i still on the mood of Raya but than still got to go to work. Huhu.

i could see and felt the differences, Then and Now.

School time and Working time.

Teenage life and Adult life.

Family life???

Urgh...don't wanna know.

Can't imagine though.

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Do view the photos at my FaceBook!

See ya! (=

YEAH!

Assalammualaikum semuanye!

Very firstly, i wanna wish all the Muslims a

" SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!!! "

Jika Hajar ade buat salah dan silap ataupun terkasar bahase ataupun selebihnye,

Harap dimaafkan ye.

Harap makan dan minum pun dihalalkan jua.

Dalam bulan yg mulia ini, semoga kawan2 semue berbahgia disamping org atau keluarga yg tersyg.

Amin.

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Enjoy ur happiest moment!!! ;D

Busy Day

Wokeup at 11+am.

My bro and uncle are working.

My parents left me alone at home as they went to the market very early in the morning.

i don't know what time they went out from the house cuz i'm still deeply asleep. Huhu.

Slowly doing my job one by one and that was cleaning the house for the Hari Raya preparations.

- Changed the bed mattress and pillow cases

- Changed the curtains

- Wiped the windows

- Wiped the furniture and decoration stuffs all

- Changed the table top cloth

- Wiped the mirror

- Vacuuming

- Mopping

- Filled and arranged the Kuih Muih

Me and my mum seperated our own jobs which is that she do the cooking and i do the cleaning.

Fair and steady. (=

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During the night, had been receiving alot of SMS from friends and relatives wishing each other Selamat Hari Raya.

Even, my ex. (=

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Nothing much to say here.

Just about my Hari Raya preparations only.

Till here.

See ya! (=

Can't wait for tomorrow!!!

Selamat Hari Raya Semuanye!!! =D

Feeling So Better

Today morning went to the clinic again and got an MC due to the bad diarrhoe.

Called my Sergant to inform them that i'm on MC.

Kinda headache though cuz i've been thinking alot of other things.

So sad that i have missed 2 working lessons but i think the lessons that i missed are not that important.

it is just a Work Improvement Team same like a group project/group dicussion.

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Had a few hours of resting.

Decided to went out after feeling halfly better and bored.

Around 3pm, reached at KK Hopsital to accompany my godsis to pay the hospital bill.

i was accompanied by my godbro too.

While waiting for my godsis to come, me and my godbro had our own photo-taking.

We captured alots of photos of us together and individual.

Mostly was candid and the hilarious part is our face expressions. LOL.

U know i know. ;)

We went to many places today.

- KK Hospital

- Geylang

- Ang Mo Kio

- Yishun

- Woodlands

- Jurong East

Had our break-fasting at Yishun NorthPoint.

The best moment is at Jurong East, went to IMM Giant for shopping!

Eeerrr...only my godsis that shops. Ehees.

Me and my godbro was helping her out to find the stuffs that she needs for her Hari Raya preparations.

Was very fun, i felt like as if we are one happy family staying together in a one rooftop. Ahaks. (=

We spent time together till quite late night.

After the shopping, me and my godbro are so hungry and we couldn't get the prefect food that we want cuz mostly the shops has closed.

it was at 10+pm already.

The Burger King still opened and so no choice, had to buy there.

My godsis sent us home by tooking a cab.

Reached home at 11+pm.

i am loving the weather and the day itself.

Superb Fun!!! (=

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And i'm feeling more better.

i feel good!

Till here.

See ya! (=

When Sickness Strike

Today i'm not working.

Got an MC from the doctor wherelse i asked for 2 days instead he gave me only 1 day.

Like WTF. )=

i having a bad diarrhoe and kept vomitting.

The sickness starts in the midnight which making me couldn't sleep at all.

Kept woking up and rush to the toilet. Urgh! -_-"

Suspected that i've ate the wrong food yesterday. :'(

But now, i'm feeling abit better though.

Tomorrow, if it's still the same, i guess i'll take half day.

Now, still having the stomache. *fainted*

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Geylang tomorrow?

Hmm...maybe.

Till here.

See ya!

is there air?

HeyLo HeyLo HeyLo!
What a welcome greeting here.
i'm just tired. Huahua. =p
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i wanna shared something about yesterday.
i met a friend at Suntec City to have his personal thing done.
He needs someone to accompany him as that was his first time there.
His reaction was cute cuz of his nervousness and this "man" in the shop(salesperson) itself. Hehehe.
We don't have time to find a place for our break-fasting and so he intended to get his stuff done first then went to eat.
it took 30 minutes for him to get his stuff done.
We had KFC for our dinner and it was my treat.
We took turns to treat each other. (=
Had a very satisfying dinner, was so fulled.
But then the surroundings was quite silent for me cuz there were not much people.
To addition, the aircon was like a fan, i didn't feel any coldness at all. Ahaks.
Somehow, actually, it's a nice place to be at cuz i knew that he didn't like places that is crowded.
Romantic or what eh? Hmm...idk.
Before we headed home, we sat somewhere for a moment to have a more conversations and joking around.
Aftermath, it was a Great Day eventho it was a short period of time. (=
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Friend...
Ur most welcome for yesterday.
As i'm free, i don't mind tagging along with/for that persons.
Until, i couldn't recognise u from far cuz u look different.
But i'm good in observing people i guess. Hehehe.
U do look great with ur new haircut and eyebrows.
Simply clean, neat, handsome and adorably u.
i simply described u as the new person.
Ceh. Mcm P! LOL. ;)
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As for today at work...
Everyone was so slacked, bored and sleepy.
The studies was so boring.
it's like we're back during the primary school old time.
Need to form a group and do group discussion as in brainstorming on what the topic was about.
And need to present too in front of everybody.
When it comes to my turn, i present it fast and simple, just read what we've wrote on the paper itself.
i'm just too lazy to give an explaination on every point cuz i'm not interested on the topic itself.

During the lesson, i never pay much attention to the trainer cuz i was like texting with a few of my friends to make myself stay awake and not bored.
Ehees. i know i'm bad. =p
We headed home at 5pm as every group has finished with the presentation.
So good so early. (=
Having the same lesson for tomorrow and Friday and i was like, "Urgh! Gonna be very sleepy sia."

-_-"

And don't forget, the lesson was the whole day thru.

Duh..............................................

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Last minute plan, after work went to meet my friend at CCK and headed to the ZOO to take his pay slip and meet the other friend too.

Had our dinner at Yishun Northpoint around 8+pm.

Was so hungry but before that we did drank a bottle of water.

Like WTF seriously shit.

Somehow, still have to tolerate and be understanding.

U know, sometimes, some people really don't have a heart or a sense at all.

i could see and felt that, that person sometimes are just using us for their purpose need.

Urgh! i really really really felt bad if i am that person sia.

Honestly.

Whatever it is, just ignored, end of story.
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Going to Geylang again on Friday i think.
Till here.
See ya! (=

Awesome Weekend

Wokeup late together with my mummy.

Had a chit chat, joke around and took some photos with her on the bed.
Smelling each other smelliness. Hehehe.

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After Asar, getting ourselves ready to be picked up by my uncle who drove a lorry.

At 5.30pm they reached at my place and except for my dad is not joining.

i happily went down the staircase to the lorry feeling so good on that day.

Then heading straight to Geylang.

Sat behind, it was an unsheltered lorry, feeling the strong wind and admiring every movements and surroundings.

Half way thru, the weather starts to change and it rains drizzlingly.

it was a pass by rain so it just took a few minutes for it to go away.

Reached Geylang at 6+pm.

We went straight for our shoppings and i was reminding them that are we not gonna find a place for our break fast?

Heard from my cousins that our uncle here has already made a reservation at a restaurant.

The reservation time was at 8pm.

Ouh..so we bought drinks and kuih muih untuk syarat je.

Then we continue shopping and by 10pm we reached at the restaurant for our late dinner.

i couldn't recap what's the restaurant name was.

i think it was Makanan Laut Chai Chee around kembangan MRT.

We seperated ourselves into 2 groups.

Ordered and slowly one by one the dishes came.

Firstly, we were OK by the serving of the food which were served by the waiter.

As time goes by, me, my bro, my uncle and my cousins were so stuck up.

Becuz there's more dishes coming up and we were like, how are we gonna finish it up?

There's variesties of food.

The one i love is the Chilli Crab and the Prawn coated with Butter Cereal!

LOL. Everyone then started to laugh out loud especially my uncle.

So we slowly ate it till our stomach going to burst/tear apart. LOL.

We are so damn fulled.

Our stomach are so getting the bigger and bloated.

As for me, it has been a long time since i had that kind of a big feast.

We took 1 hour to finish up the food but somehow, there's a balance of the food we brought home.

Settled down, went to sit on the lorry and laid back my fully load stomach gentlely.

Took some photos with my cousins.

Afterall, it was an awesome and greatful fam outing and dinner!!! =D

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Hari Raya is just around the corner!!

Wuhuu!!! (=
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Reached home safely at 12am.

Quickly washed up and knocked off.

Do view the other photos in my FaceBook!

That's all.

See ya! (=

i miss the moments

This link is about my past with my ex.
i just miss the past and wanna share with u all here.
Brokeup since 7 months back.

Now, i've already happily move on. (=
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http://juicylovechocs.blogspot.com/2009/03/best-moment-when-i-had-u-in-my-life.html

Small introduction of myself

This was copy and paste from my old sharing blog with my besties.

i've edited abit of it.

Simply read it! (=

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A simple, outgoing, gentle, thoughtful, caring, loving and silly lady from an average family.

Live life to the fullest eventhough my life has alot of obstacles to face with sometimes.

I believed people out there has their own obstacles too.

So Heylo people, be strong always, don't give up easily. (=

I'm single.

Searching for my prince charming to enter and start a new life with him.

But guys, before u wanted to have me, i suggest u think carefully becuz what i want in a relationship is that, u must understand my life, my family background and accept me for who i am.

Honesty, Loyalty, Sincerely, Trustworthy, Commitment and Responsibility are very important too.

If u truely love someone, u should go through all the ups and downs together.

Don't back off and give up easily.

Cuz i've been through that and it hurts me alot.

But, however, i still have to move on no matter what.

Let the past be the past and let it stay as a memory.

My hobbies are, watching movies and tv shows, listening to music(any genre), karaokeing, chillout with my friends, surf the internet, dancing(playing ard) and do crazy stuffs with my friends.

I don't smoke, drink, club, sex and drug.

I love ice-cream so much especially Butterscotch flavour.

Graduated from ITE WEST Clementi in HigherNitec in Business-Information Technology.

Currently, i'm under ICA Training in a Home Basic Course.

So people, buy me my fav ice-cream if u wanna make friend with me. Hehehe. Just kidding.

Feeling intense

AaaaaaRrrrrrrGgggggHhhhhhh!!!!!

Geramnye dgn makcik aku!!!

Supposingly, today went to Geylang with my fam.

But end up, going tomorrow.

Called my uncle and auntie to check on them whether are we going today.

My auntie said something that really makes me turn into a angry tiger.

Wah! The way she spoke to me and her voices all was like fucking action sia.

U don't have to raise up ur voice to me what instead u can say nicely. Duh!

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Susah seh skrg nak berbincang dgn keluarga sendiri.

Bile org free, dorg pulak yg mcm2.

Bile org tk free, dorg pulak yg free beh bising2 ckp ini itu lah psl kite.

Haiz...WTF!

i just couldn't understand them ar seriously.

Pentingkan org luar dari keluarga sendiri.

Perkara buruk pernah terjadi dahulunye dalam keluarga kite.

Tu pun maseh tk serik2 agi ke.

Bukannye ape ar, i'm not accusing or bad commenting that person.

i just felt that my family has been left out by the own family itself.

Hate this type of people, very typical and judgemental one.

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That's it.

See ya.

i wish i wish i wish

i love accessories like necklaces, bracelets, ear-rings and rings.

There's a reason behind it...

Why i only wore all accessories on the above except necklaces???

if u could spot the difference in my pics or on reality.

i mean i used to wear a necklace but not the permanent one.

What's the reason?

Wanna know why?

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Yesterday, i had a dream...

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My Prince Charming came to me...

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Wore me a very elegant and beautiful necklace on my neck...

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The chain itself was silver in colour and the diamond pendant itself was purple in colour...

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The diamond pendant was a heart shape...

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He then whisper something in my ears and there it goes...

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The special and memoriest day in my life.

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And that's my answer to my question.

i didn't have so called a permanent necklace which are to wear it forever on my neck is becuz i want HIM to present me as a gift and put it on my neck on the special day itself.

The funny thing is that how come i could dream about this.

Whereby, in reality, i've been planning and wishing for that already.

i'm not creating a fiction story here, it's just true of all, really.

Shall wait and see.

Wished. (=

TGIF

Today school was very early.

Studied for only 4hrs and the topic for today was superb well-done.

Can't wait for Monday, it's a hands on lesson! =D

We are to have our lunch break and transfer straight to Paya Lebar Cisco for the photoshoot.

The photoshoot took only 5mins for each person.

Once done, we are dismissed.

if i knew that the timing is not compulsary to have reach there by 2.30pm, i would just come by train.

instead i took a cab from Chinese Garden and it cost $14.80.

What a waste but nvm, for work i'm willing to.

i came with my Chinese colleagues while others i don't know where they went to which made them came late at 3pm.

Supposingly, i joining them to break fast together at Geylang but i'm not.

Cuz it was too early at that point of time and i was thinking that i should go for my medical checkup instead of joining them since others have went for it.

Went to RMG at Raffles Place and there's a few of patients only.

Took my urine test, X-Ray, height and weight, eyes checking, blood pressure, mouth checking, ear checking, neck checking, heartbeat checking, waist area checking(i just named it anyhow) and lastly, breast checking.

i thought the doctor(male) saying this, "i'll get the female nurse to assist u", means that the nurse will undergo the breast checking on me.

Unexpectedly, i'm quite shocked cuz the nurse just assist me to losen up my bra.

Then she called the doctor and i was like "GULP!!!"

So the embarrassing sia!

He then undergo the checking and told me that my right lung are small.

He ask me to touch it and feel it but don't know how to feel it. Ahaks.

i just answered him ya it is small.

Then he ask me whether i'm aware of this, i said nope.

Lastly he said that, there's many like over 20,000 people had this type of thingy which 1 of their lungs is small and i'm still young so if there's any follow-up checkup on this, i should attend.

Ahaks. That's all for the medical checkup thingy.

i laughed when i shared it with my parents that i'm not perfect. LOL.

Kinda worried and mysterious thing for me.

Hmmm...hopefully nothing bad effection/illness or what seh.

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Thought of going to Vivo to catch a movie, Dance Flick but not.

Suddenly, i intend to call my mum and ask her to break fast outside today.

it was still early for me, i left the RMG at 4.40pm.

So there's a long way to go for the break fast time.

So i chose to take the longest trip for me to reach at CCK by 6.30pm to meet my parents there.

i took a train to Outram Park, alighted at Harbourfront and took 188 bus straight to CCK.

And yeah. i reached at the Food Court on time at 6.30pm, sat down and listened to my MP3 while waiting for them to reach.

i treated my parents and unfortunately, my bro couldn't make it cuz he's working part-time.

Aftermath, it was a great fine day.

Was happily spenting time with my parents by talking alot of topics. (=

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Since i've done with my medical checkup, i can wake up late tomorrow!

Yes! Sleepy head! Haha. ;)

Tomorrow will be doing a few things cuz i intend to slack myself around.

Lazy bum like always. Hehe. =p

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Till here.

See ya! (=

it's just about her

Butterfly Fly Away - Miley Cyrus



Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus

On Top of the Normal

Had a Fried Seafood Mee cooked by my mummy for the break fast.

Superb delicious! ;)

Drank alot of Tea'O today, was very thirsty since today i just continued back my fasting.

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Today at work was superb sleepy. Hehehe.

Yesterday slept at 1+am.

in the classroom, i sat at the first row which i think i could keep myself attentive during lessons.

However, still no different. LOL.

Actually, tell u guys the truth, almost everyday i'm like that in class.

Always sleepy when listening to what my Trainer taught unless for the Malay Trainer.

i'm the worst sleepy head sia! Hahaha. =p

AND!

The very worst thingy is the Air-con.

Everyday in the classroom, not only me, my whole colleagues was freezing to death.

Nak bedek je eh. Hehehe. =p

Even worst, we can't set the timer, we can only on and off it.

But nvm, we must have what to cover ourself when we're cold?

Blanket! Eh NO!!!

Cardigan, sweater, jacket or shawl etc.

Blanket dah lain cite seh, itu selimut utk tido je. Haha. =p

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My other colleagues planned that tomorrow after the photoshoot for our pass, we drop by to Geylang Serai for a stroll and break fast.

Heard that we'll be going to Arnolds.

Eh? Ntahlah, aku ikut je.

i think the photoshoot thingy will end early.

Lets say if we do end early, then what are we gonna do seh till the break fast time.

Hmmm...feel like wanna go home...or wanna go somewhere else.

i started to wondering about something but nvm, don't wanna spread it out here.

Let me consider it till tomorrow. Ehees.

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Besties!

U know what i just saw today?

i saw Zubir in the place itself!

i don't really know what his doing just now.

So surprisingly, he's botak already! LOL.

Botak do suits u well too Zub. :)

i'm not bad commenting u anyway.

Somehow its the fact that it do suits u.

Jgn salah paham tau. Hehehe.

Bile npk tu, rase nak tegur panggil name tapi tak bole ar.

Die tgh on command seh. Ahaks.

Just happy to see u there, Zub. (=

Wherelse Sly is somewhere in the place too but never see or pass by her or what seh. )=

One day lah eh...mane tahu. Ehees.

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Yeah!!! My Kuih Muih has been sent by Abang Sadali!!

Thank You Abang! =D

The Kuih Muih was so tempting especially the Chocolate Cornflakes!!

Hmm...Yummy! Yummy!! Yummy!!! =p

Feel like wanna open it up and eat now sia.

Oh. Cannot cannot. Ahaks.

Have to wait for the Big Day! (=

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Okay peeps!

Got to do some work.

See ya! (=

Wednesday Morning

Yesterday and today was a awesome day.

i enjoyed myself during the training cuz i learnt alot of things, unusual and different thingy.

All the topics that i've learnt, was very very interesting! =D

Without notice, tomorrow is the 4th day already.

Wow! Time move really fast sia.

Good! Good! Good! (=

Today's topic at work was about the Air Command, Airport and Body Search Techniques.

So cool cool interesting topic to learn!

Using the UV Light to scan the Visa Card etc and we could see the MicroText in the card.

Haha. i was just too excited that's all. Hehehe. (=

All the Malay Trainer was so friendly, very sporting and very the joker unlike the Chinese one.

They taught us very professionally.

Haiz...easy said, i love them lah! LOL.

And and and...!!!

i really can't wait for the 1 week stay in! ;)

i'm really looking forward for it becuz i just wanna feel and experience how guys got enlisted during the years.

i just wanna be like them for that 1 week. (=

i hope it's fine once i stay in.

One more thing...

if can right, i need someone to give a call during the night so that i'm not boring. LOL.

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Friday, during lunch, will be going to Paya Lebar Cisco for a photoshoot of our permanent pass.

Once settle, we can go home.

And i've been wondering, where should i do and go after that.

Thought wanna break fast with my colleagues but i don't feel wanna join them.

Haha. i don't know lah. See how.

Whoever free on that day, if wanna meet me, do beep me aitez.

We go break fast together together. (=

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Going for a medical checkup at RMG on Saturday morning but i don't know which branch should i go to.

Raffles or Woodlands?

Hmmm....haiya.

Have to wakeup early in the morning again?!

RMG close at 11am.

Possible?

i try. (=

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After the medical checkup, thought of going to JBP for a visit.

Text my JBP colleagues, told them that maybe i will be coming on the Saturday for a visit.
Unfortunately, some are on their off days. )=
So i think maybe next week or what. See how lah.
Kinda troublesome.
Misses them like alot! )=

Maybe will be going to Geylang with my fam, aunties, uncles and cousins at night.

i hope it's a confirm.

if not, i'll be so sad. =/

i just wanna see the night seeing and feel the night atmosphere after the long time. (=

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Tomorrow Abang Sadali the Bird Trainer at JBP is coming to my house to send the Kuih Muih that i've ordered from him before i quit that time.

His wife made the Kuih Muih.

Was testerd before ordering and it tasted nice and so i ordered.

Quite cheap for me.

We are members, that's why.

Got discount. Hehehe. ;)

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Till here.

See ya! (=

i felt so good after i've confessed.

Who is he?

Tell u what...

Honestly, the video and the song that i'm falling in love with is...

Specially dedicated to u...only u.

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The one that is playing now on my music box.

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The lyrics are so meaningful to me.

Hope u could feel how i felt.

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(i don't want anyone else to realize how amazing you are, ily.)

For u...

" Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea what so ever. I look at him as a friend, then I realized I loved him. No one can accuse you of falling in love with the wrong person if inside you know he is the one. It is tearing me up on the inside to have these feelings for you, but I can't get rid of them. I want a new life and I want it with you. "

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" Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever.
A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, neither would a million tears, I know I've cried.
Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet. People think it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go. Sometimes it's better to be alone. No one can hurt you that way. "

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" Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore. And if you were to say 'come with me', even now I might go. Just because I moved on doesn't mean I won't be here if you change your mind. You do something to me that I can't explain, so would I be out of line if I said I miss you? I know you've been busy, I had things to do too. We haven't talked for some time, I wonder if everything's fine. I had other stuff on my mind, I'm sure you did too, but I just had to tell you this my friend... hey I miss you. "

My First Day of Training

Today have to report at HTA at 8.30am.
Wokeup late at 6.45am.
Rushing myself to have a bath and get ready.
Went out at 7.50am and wait for taxi to be held.
i went out late becuz the HTA is nearby my home so i thought i'm not gonna be late.
Unfortunately, what a morning day.
All the taxi were hired.
Oh gosh! i was so pressured but i managed to relax myself down.
Reached there at 8.25am but i'm still counted as late becuz i'm lost in there. Hahaha.
Couldn't find my way to the block which i'm supposed to report to.
Saw this 2 guys and i recognized 1 of them.
Then we walked together to search for the block.
So i'm not the only one that is late, there's others too.
Once we reached, we took a bag which occupied ICA Documents and settle down quickly.
There's 32 peoples in my class Batch No. 15.
Mostly were Malay and Males.
if i'm not wrong, my class is the last batch as in for this term.
i felt great for the first day for today. (=
it's exactly the same like our school time.
But i imagine this was like i'm in the Poly instead. LOL. ;)
Got to make new friends around i mean with new colleagues. (=
They are friendly, funny, some are talkative and playful.
During the Measurement of Uniforms, everyone have to tryout the uniform.
When i wore it and looked in the mirror, i was so proud of myself.
i looked really smart just like a Police Officer. =D
But...u guys wanna know something?
My body features is not perfect at all.
Really, i mean it. Haha.
My blouse size which is the top, is size M.
For my pants, is size XXL.
Hehehehe. Jauh beza sak!
What a big waist i have! LOL. =p
i didn't expect that my first day are going to be a wonderful day.
Well...it is great to be in there, trust me. =D
i just counted myself as the lucky one. (=
Thanked God.
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The time-table schdule was up.
Working on weekdays, 9am-6pm.
Off on weekends. ;)
For Hari Raya, will not be working for 3 days, 19, 20 and 21 Sept.
There's a stay-in and that will be on 12-21 Oct if i'm not wrong.
i can't wait for it! =D
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That's all for today i guess.
i'm gonna watch the latest Hannah Montana The Movie.
Been wanting to watch the movie last 2 months but never. )=
So i rented it just now and gonna watch it now!
it's a great story, i know cuz i've watched the trailer.
See ya! (=

Self-disappointed

At 3+pm...

Daddy: Adik, mama ajak buke luar nanti?

Me: Adik klr dgn kwn nanti.

Daddy: Ade duit je, merayap. Kau tak tahu nak ddk rmh eh. Ade je plan ko. Klu tkde duit jgn nak mtk2 aku. Ko igt ko dah besar ko leh bt sesuke hati ko. Jgn sampai aku halau ko dari rmh, baru tahu nanti naseb ko mcm ane. Ko dgr cket ape aku ckp eh. Ko igt aku tk tahu yg ko isap rokok. Ckp pandai yg kwn ko semue isap rokok cume ko je tak. Padehal ko isap. Ko igt aku tk tahu. Kwn aku ade video ko tgh isap rokok lah. Jgn sampai aku dpt tangkap sudah.

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After an hour...4+pm...

Mummy: Abang, tadi pagi ko tk antar mama g keje eh. Aku kejut ko, ko tk tahu nk bgn. Mengeliat ssh nk bgn. Pegi geylg bole dgn matair balek sampai pkl 4pagi. Bile mak mtk antar g keje, ko tk nk antar, ko bsrkan taik mata je. Nari buke rmh eh?

Abang: Tak, org buke luar.

Mummy: Tu lah. Bile mama ajak buke luar, ade je ko.

Mummy: Adik, mane ko? Ko nk g mane ni siap2?

Me: Klr dgn kwn.

Mummy: Tak habis2 klr dgn kwn. Smlm dah klr pun tk puas? Hari2 jumpe kwn. Tglkan mak ko buke rmh sorg2. Asl ko tk masak nasi huh? Nasi dah tgh cket gitu, tk puase tk tahu nk masakkan nasi. Ape ko bt kat rmh?

Me: Balek keje jgn nk biseng2 bole tak. Org klr biseng, tk klr pun biseng.

Mummy: Aku bkn biseng!!! Aku cume blg n tnye ko asl ko tk masak nasi?!! Bile aku ajak buke luar je, semue ade je plan. Agi bgs aku mati ade anak mcm gini!!!

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Take my bag and went out from the house.

i couldn't take it what has happened today.

What a disaster day today! Damn!

Am i at fault?

Yeah, i am.

i thought it's over but it just happened.

if not becuz of u daddy, i won't be so rude to mum.

i felt very guilty towards my mum.

i really didn't have the intention to make u more mad and angry mummy.

i just couldn't take it what dad has said to me.

its fulled of bullshit in his mouth!!!

Don't accused me just like that.

if it's true that ur fren has a video of me smoking, where is it?!! Who's ur fren?!!

i will definitely gonna fuck him/her upside down to make sure he/she won't disturb my life anymore.

Bloody big asshole!!!

Don't try to mess up with me.

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Unfortunately, we didn't get to meet up today.

it's becuz of me having alots of problem.

Just need to be alone for a meantime that's all.

Sat down at Vivo and started to daydreaming, thinking about all my probs.

Haiz...What a life.

Sometimes i wish i could rewind back my life to my childhood life.

Thanks to my new fren and AsReE for the shoulder to lean on.

i could feel the comfort that u guys gave me.

Ur care and concern towards me has been much appreciated. (=

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" Life isn't supposed to make you feel happy.

It isn't meant to make you feel sad either.

It's just there to make you feel. "

Happy Saturday Night

Just now was super duper GEREK!!!
Celebrated MaRiLyN's AnD sLyViA's Bdae together!
The Nasi Briyani and Chocolate Cake was super duper delicious!
Thanks so much to ZuRa & Fam.
With that, i wanna wish u girls a...
" HaPpY 20th Bdae to MaRy! "
" HaPpY 19th Bdae to sLy! "
i hope u dudettes did enjoy the bdae celebration just now.
May God bless u always and have a bright future ahead with lotsa love & happiness!
Love u both so muchies. (=
Muackx!!!
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After the celebration, went to my uncle's house for fam gathering.
AsReE tag along too.
Like usual, there's always alots of food on the table.
But i couldn't eat them cuz im fulled.
Had some photo taking with AsReE and my cousins.
it was great and fun!
And now, my nose are sicked by the smell of the cigarettes.
Urgh!
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And for my only ZuBiR...
i wish u All the Best for ur NS.
Hope u could manage and cope well with it.
Do keep in touch always.
Take care Mr Policeman. ;)
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As for me...
i'm getting so freaking nervous for my first day of work.
Urgh!!! Stress! Nervous! Scared!
Time, please move more faster! Hehehe.
Shall listen to what my uncle had just advised me. (=
That will definitely be good for me to calm myself down. (=
i need a shoulder/hug to comfort myself. )=
Oh God! :'(
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Later, i feel like wanting to go out to relax my mind.
But i dunno where to go, who to go with.
Hmm...if AsReE get the replacement for his work, i'll go out with him.
if not, i have no idea.
Maybe will be chilling alone go catch some movies etc.
Huahua. Dah biase dah. Lonely and independent katekan.
Ceh. MP! Ehees. ;)
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To my new fren,
i hope u could move on as a normal guy leading to a happy life.
Don't/Never look back on ur past.
That's when u realize that ur actually wasting of time.
What past is past.
Begin a new life of greater fulfillment and happiness.
Friends are like stars,
You can't always see them,
But you know they are always be there for you...
Cheer up! (=
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Till here guys.

Do view the celebration photos in my FaceBook!
See ya! (=

Which suits me best?

Curls or Straight? Short or Long? Fringe or non-fringe?

Specs or non-specs?

P.S. i need some feedback guys. TQ. (=

My Heartbeat

Ur ma' everything Mummy!
Love ya always!
Muackx!!! =p

Oh God...

Urgh!

Please not now...

i don't need u anymore.

i can't face this obstacles for now.

i would love to brainwash myself about u.

Cuz i don't wanna have the past back again.

i had enough...seriously.

Please don't contact me back.

i'm falling in love with...

* Lubang Di Hati by Letto *

kubuka mata dan kulihat dunia

tlah kuterima anugerah cintanya

tak pernah aku menyesali yang kupunya

tapi kusadari ada lubang dalam hati.

kucari sesuatu yang mampu mengisi lubang ini

kumenanti jawaban yang apa yang dikatakan oleh hati

apakah itu kamu apakah itu dia selama ini kucari tanpa henti

apakah itu cinta apakah itu cita yang mampu melengkapi lubang dalam hati?

kumengira hanya dialah obatnya

tapi kusadari bukan itu yang kucari

kuteruskan perjalanan panjang yang begitu melelahkan

dan kuyakin kau tak ingin aku berhenti

Letting out of what i felt

it's like i realized that way down inside, i've always been lonely for something.

But i don't know what for.

it's like...everybody in the world wants something.

Only they never really know exactly what it is...they just keep finding out what it's not.

You know how, when you turn off the TV or you come out of some concert, and everything just feels...empty?

Like you thought that would be what you wanted, and then it wasn't?

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i want someone to share my secrets with,

someone to talk to late at night when i can't sleep,

someone who feels comfortable around my family,

someone to comfort me when i'm scared,

to hold me when i'm sad,

someone who doesn't need to say that he loves me for me to know its true.

waiting...

Best Girlfriend

As the years pass and we grow apart, I want you to know that you are in my heart.

You helped me through problems, through things good and bad.

You helped me keep smiling when I was sad.

You helped me with guys.

You made me stay strong.

How will I live, when you are gone?

And where the years take us, no place is too far.

We will think of each other wherever we are.

You're wonderful people with good hearts to lend, and I want you to know that you'll always be my best friends!

Love ya! (=

i just did

i had to confess to this someone.

i just couldn't hold onto it anymore for long.

i mean, my feelings...

my feelings for u.

i declared that i have feelings for u eversince the first time we met.

i had a crush on u.

i once remembered that when ur in a need of something, i was there for u to calm u down.

i gave my encouragement words to u just to give u a hope and support that u will move on in ur life.

in return, we do make a good friends bonding beautifully in a short period of time.

but now, all has gone...u has just blew the sweet memories away.

somewhere in time, i was hoping that we could be as last time.

" In my life, i meet people.

Some i never think about again.

Some, i wonder what happened to them.

There are some that i wonder if they ever think about me.

And then there are some i wish i never had to think about again.

But i do. "

FIRHAN

P.S. i'm throwing away my feelings for u to unhurt myself.

Friendship

Friends.

A simple word isn't it?

It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable.

Who are your friends?

I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to.

Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your hearts.

You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them.

They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with.

They don't judge you or make you change.

They accept you exactly as you are.

They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with.

You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, and smiles.

You're tied together by love for the other.

Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world.

I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life.

My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life.

Outing to Fort Canning.

Picnic at Changi Beach.

Sheesha Outing.

Sheesha Outing.

Picnic at Sentosa.

Picnic at East Coast Park.

Prawn Fishing Outing.