Yeah!!!
i'm a MarksWoman today!!!
i beat someone today.
Very satisfying. (=

He's my Crush

Blessfully, i felt so much better now having a happy wonderful life now.

My life was filled with such a colourful rainbows and beautiful flowers all around just becuz of having this special someone in my heart recently on 101009.

U are everything i never knew i wanted.

That shows how naturally and sincerely my feelings is towards u.

...i love u...

Breaking Down

i'm 30% happy that i'm posted to Tuas Checkpoint.
i'm 70% very sad cuz mostly the others was posted to Woodlands Checkpoint and i'm going to miss them like alot.
There's 31 peoples in my batch.
A few of it is going to Coastal and Tuas.
Haiz...i'm so down right now.
We got 5 to 4 weeks to spent time together and enjoy before our graduation in this training right now.
We still can keep in touch but i believe we gonna be busy.
Understand understood.
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i felt so sad that we as a batch are going to be seperated.
As days goes by, our friendship bonding are getting so much better.
i could feel the love and united as one class together.
U guys all are kecohrable and fun to be with.
i admit that i'm proud to be in the same batch as u all.
Nevertheless, u all are a very nice people. (=
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The 1st song is my top favourite song for this week/month.
it can be dedicated to ours.
So do listen to the lyrics carefully cuz its meaningful.
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Till here, got to sleep.
See ya! (=

Exhausted

Yesterday and today was very tiring day for me cuz i'm having a Basic Unarmed Combat(BUC) for the whole day.

Will be certify on Tuesday which is the last day of the training.

Eventhough the training was very tough, i do really enjoyed it so much.

it was so fun cuz i got to learn the self-defence tactics and it was a great experience.
Now, i've knew abit of fightings but still being clumsy on it. Hehehe.

All my body is aching like hell especially my arms, muscles and veins pain.

Every parts is cramping. Urgh... )=

i need to go for massaging and spa to pamper myself after all this harsh training.

Or it will be more easier if someone wanna massage me. ;)

Looking forward for Firearm training. (=

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Just got back home about half an hour ago from jalan raya.

Went to Abang Sadali's house(JBP colleague) at Jurong West.

it was a good moments cuz i got to meet up with my ex colleagues and his family members too.

His kids are so adorable and both girls are twins.

They even kisses me before i headed home. Haha.

isn't that cute? Adorably them. (=

Thanks abg for the nasi brani-ing!

it was very delicious! (=

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Tomorrow planning is to clean up my house and went for jogging to gain my stamina.

Cuz it seems that it has been quite sometimes that i didn't jogged and thats why all my muscle starts to aching.

And even my stomache is getting bigger. LOL.

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Uploaded new photos in FB, do view!

Till here.

See ya! (=

it's driving me crazy

i'm in a D I L E M M A .

i've been thinking alot of things in my head.

i can't really decide which is the best decision for myself...for my own good.

i'm in a situation in which i have to made a choice between options that are equally unfavourable.

i thought i am willing to try this but after, my feelings changed.

i'm feeling half-hearted right now.

i just can't force myself in to it.

i really can't.

it seems to me that the harder i try the harder i fall.

Should i back off ???

Should i just continue for the sake of my parents or for the sake of my future or for the sake of being guilty towards my parents or for the sake of by supporting myself ???

i'm afraid they might be bad-mouth me due to this matter.

They said that this thing could gurantee my future.

To me, i don't think so, i'm strongly disagree.

One remembered me by saying that,

" if u have money but ur life are not happy or no life, for what? No use. "

Haiz..........very stressful.

i felt deeply shit right now...my feelings is in disaster...total disaster.

Somehow, i can see alot of changes on what happens around me after.

Very disappointed though.

it's really hard to face this matter for me.

Still, i just faced this matter as in nothing happens but inside u'll never know.

U look at me and think, 'she's so happy' but there's so much behind this little smile that u will never know.

What goes around comes around.

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" Oh God, please send me ur blessing which i really need a very good guidance from u. "

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:""(((

2nd Day of Raya

Very tiring day.

Eventhough went out late and just went to a few houses, but still the tiredness could still feel.

Went to 3 houses.

- Yishun

- Jurong West (2 houses)

Lastly, they went to my house to dig in and sat until 12+am.

Convenietly, my uncle drove a lorry, another uncle drove a car and my auntie drove a car too.

For the ladies, normally, took a car cuz of our Baju Kurung(kain).

For the guys, took a lorry which was so cool. Ahaks.

Easily said, seperated into groups of gender. LOL.

i was imagining that next year, my fam will drive by our own.

My bro gonna took his TP soon and for me, i'm still thinking.

if can i wanted to take the driving license before the next year of Raya.

it will be more Syiok! ;)

Hmm...see how.

Need to have a stable financial.

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As for the 1st day of Raya, my fam dress code was black in colour.

2nd day, was purple cream in colour except for my dad, he's out of the dress code cuz he wore orange in colour. Huahua.

The sad thing is that, this year i didn't get to take a pic of my fam together. Haiz. )=

Was busy enjoying myself talking here and there with relatives. Ehees.

But i did took photos of my whole fam during the visiting of houses to houses. (=

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Aftermath, it was a very memories Hari Raya day for me!

Due to some fam problems that have not been settle for the past 2yrs and now it has settled! =D

Emotional and Happiest Day! (=

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Tomorrow i'm working and i was very restless.

i still on the mood of Raya but than still got to go to work. Huhu.

i could see and felt the differences, Then and Now.

School time and Working time.

Teenage life and Adult life.

Family life???

Urgh...don't wanna know.

Can't imagine though.

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Do view the photos at my FaceBook!

See ya! (=

YEAH!

Assalammualaikum semuanye!

Very firstly, i wanna wish all the Muslims a

" SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!!! "

Jika Hajar ade buat salah dan silap ataupun terkasar bahase ataupun selebihnye,

Harap dimaafkan ye.

Harap makan dan minum pun dihalalkan jua.

Dalam bulan yg mulia ini, semoga kawan2 semue berbahgia disamping org atau keluarga yg tersyg.

Amin.

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Enjoy ur happiest moment!!! ;D